I have always believed that if u love a girl in exponential terms to infinity, she starts falling in love with you even if she hates you.... And I am not letting anyone shatter this belief in me. I am going to shower so much love onto you that you will drown in it. I will stand by you forever either till the world ends or me, even if the whole of the world is against me. I will always defend you till my last breath in me. I care for you like a mother cares for her new born child. I have never let you down or never will.
This is what i am, and i am not going to change because i can't, not that i tried. I am a kid, i am immature, I am stupid, I am DIFFERENT and I am proud of all of these. I know i have fucked up quarter of my life but it isn't irreparable. I need you so desperately in my life that I can't express it in words. 

I hate myself cause

1. I sprained my ankle and is getting worse.
2. I lost my keys and have like 10% chance of finding it back.
3. My laundry bag is getting bigger and bigger.
4. I skip meals due to my laziness.
5. One of my table's leg is longer than the rest three, it keeps playing sea-saw when ever i do maths on it.
6. My wardrobe is a mess.
7. My phone's screen cracked.
8. I lost my bag which contained my pass book, important documents and my fav notebook.
9. One of the ears of my fav earphones just stopped working.
10. Important messages from important people jus don't get delivered to me.
11. I am literally broke rite now.
12. I owe people money.
13. People who owes me money are them self broke.
14. My AC just refuses to work when needed.
15. My T-shirts and jeans doesn't fit me properly.
16. My hair stands up in places that i don't want them to.
17. My Maths teacher was a complete psycho and he got transferred (phew..) but he got replaced by another psycho who is no less than the previous one.
18. My accent is stupid.
19. My Hindi is worse. 
20. And I write shit.

A New Start

From a last few months i have been feeling a lil different.....Different than my usual self.. Standing infront of the mirror i don't see the previous ME any more.... Instead i see two teenagers trapped in one body..... One of them lives his life on the edge, no tension ever however worse the situation may be, getting high is his hobby, loves a girl and can do anything to be with her, allergic to studies, inflicting injury to himself is something he does for pleasure..... The second one is the silent shy guy who never gets angry, never as in NEVER (may b this fuels the other guy 4 his no-tension attitude) anyway moving on, this guy restrains himself from getting high, loves the same girl and can do anything for her happiness, determined to study (for a wealthy future), blades and syringes are some of the things he is scared of, helps frenz even at the cost of his own lose......