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24 May, 2011

The End of 'a' Me

Dear Ish,
i don't knw why u r like this.... but we used to be b good frenz once and i seriously miss those days. I don't know what happened to you or if someone feeded ur ears wid rumors or whatever. I atleast deserve to know why i m being treated like this..
I supported you through a rough patch of ur life if u remember, and you yourself know it how it ws during those days. I agree i ws immature and stupid but i don't think i deserve this punishment.
I request you please give one reason or mistake of mine that i can hold on to and of u ignoring me like this....
You know for 2 years i tried to figure out what went wrong or where i committed a mistake. But i couldn't find anything worth this punishment towards me.
You were like a guidance to me. I was in 9th. It was you who showed me the way of love and the pains it brings with it. It was in your life i first saw what being in love is... All this made me fall in love wid you. And you so patiently tried to reasoned with me that we are not the right pair for each other. I didn't understand it then itself, but i do now.I realize how stupid i was and the trouble i caused you.
You were my first best fren i ever had. Back then i always thought that through out my life someday if the whole world is against me, there will be one person who will always support me; U. I started opening up my life in front of you. I used to tell u everything that happens to me. That much i trusted you. I used to think no one in this whole world does have such a true fren that i possessed. I was so happy. In you i first saw what frenship actually means. U were like a idol to me. But you proved me wrong. You were just like everyone. There is nothing special. I was blind i guess that i trusted you so much. True frenz never abandon each other. I should have known there is no exceptions in this world. Everyone is fucking same. And I was so fucking stupid that i couldn't see the big picture. You just left me like that without any note or explanation. I was lost back then. Without you i couldn't figure out anything. Iwas totally shattered. And there was no one to console me or help me. I was so fucking helpless and i was so alone back then.
I don't know why i am telling you this, you will anyway ignore this message and most probably won't read it.
If any of the old bit of u that i knew is left in there then u would understand what i went through with no one to support me.
I need to thank you for showing me what friendship is and its true meaning.... And really thanks for making me believe that i had the most special fren in the whole world.



P.S. - I have moved on... So don't pity me, don't need ur sympathy.



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