I hate myself cause

1. I sprained my ankle and is getting worse.
2. I lost my keys and have like 10% chance of finding it back.
3. My laundry bag is getting bigger and bigger.
4. I skip meals due to my laziness.
5. One of my table's leg is longer than the rest three, it keeps playing sea-saw when ever i do maths on it.
6. My wardrobe is a mess.
7. My phone's screen cracked.
8. I lost my bag which contained my pass book, important documents and my fav notebook.
9. One of the ears of my fav earphones just stopped working.
10. Important messages from important people jus don't get delivered to me.
11. I am literally broke rite now.
12. I owe people money.
13. People who owes me money are them self broke.
14. My AC just refuses to work when needed.
15. My T-shirts and jeans doesn't fit me properly.
16. My hair stands up in places that i don't want them to.
17. My Maths teacher was a complete psycho and he got transferred (phew..) but he got replaced by another psycho who is no less than the previous one.
18. My accent is stupid.
19. My Hindi is worse. 
20. And I write shit.

Lies...

To T.A.

"I didn't really promise u anything, i just said it to make you smile."

This isn't what you say after a year long of promises that u made to me..... All those were  lies?? Something to feed my happiness temporarily?? Something you said just to make me smile then??

What were you thinking.....?? I won't say you ruined my life or something like that, I won't accuse u of anything.......  Damn it... I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY LIFE GIRL...........!!! Once again you turned out to be just like any other girl..... You helped me falling in love again and u yourself turned  your back to me... How easily can you break someone' heart? Didn't you feel that pang in my heart when you so without any effort said that i don't mean anything to u?? I wish i could just vanish from the face of the earth then....

I am so sorry for you..........

 

Like the way u r......

Staying with u, gossiping all stupid stuff with u, making u laugh either by making a fool out of myself or other, seeing u smile n hearing your funny mimicries, all makes me realize how deeply n madly i m falling for u..... Its amazing how i still hope to find a golden  door that will lead me directly to ur heart even if  i know that the door is locked and sealed and the key is safely hidden some thousands miles away from here.....

But i kinda starting to like it here in the dark, it brings me a realization of who i m n where i belong......

keep smiling always.. n always stay the way u r...... u r f***ing awesome n u rock.... 

Hats off to u..

A New Start

From a last few months i have been feeling a lil different.....Different than my usual self.. Standing infront of the mirror i don't see the previous ME any more.... Instead i see two teenagers trapped in one body..... One of them lives his life on the edge, no tension ever however worse the situation may be, getting high is his hobby, loves a girl and can do anything to be with her, allergic to studies, inflicting injury to himself is something he does for pleasure..... The second one is the silent shy guy who never gets angry, never as in NEVER (may b this fuels the other guy 4 his no-tension attitude) anyway moving on, this guy restrains himself from getting high, loves the same girl and can do anything for her happiness, determined to study (for a wealthy future), blades and syringes are some of the things he is scared of, helps frenz even at the cost of his own lose......